Yes its that time of year again, summer is over and Autumn is upon us. This summer was a washout, sunshine was in short supply and time seems to have flown by. Today I have waded through a torrential down pour, last week, there was hot sun. Well its the middle of September and weather wise, it seems to be any ones guess what comes next.
This is the time of year I aim to knuckle down into some kind of working routine, but so far I am all over the place. I have truly neglected this blog and while today I feel like committing to more regular posts, I know that I won’t do it. My head is divided between a number of projects and disturbing family developments mean my attention is further divided. Christ how pompous that sounds. So here I am trying to explain without giving away too much irrelevant information. Well fuck it! You may as well have more detail!
So I have been working on a creative writing project, trying to develop a work of fiction, its going in waves and currently not at all. My main distraction, my mum had a mini stroke recently and is still recovering, all very scary, she is ok, exhausted mostly, Oh the irony, she finally understands this curse first hand. She has cats, we have dogs and so I must come and go between our homes, in order to spend time with her, its exhausting and just too much and so all to often I am leaving her alone to fend for herself.
Then there’s the Teenager, soon to be 20 year old, who lives in her room, venturing out to dump takeaway and meal debris around the kitchen and steal away random items, she has started her second year on a college course but is already struggling with the commitment and having mental health woes. Thus she needs extra attention and support from me. I try I really do and I know that both of them would say I do a lot for them but I feel like it is all out of control and just all too much.
Needless to say my own projects have been put to one side, although today at least I am doing this. Today I have timetabled it all in, I have completed some very necessary house chores, before breaking out here to the library, through the floods, next is a ballet class, then home and daughter time, we’ve decided on weekly study meeting to plan her directed study time, all that time out of school has left her with no experience of study skills. Prepare dinner, sort dogs then taxi to mum’s house for the night, so today I should have it all covered. No mention in there of my rest break, I will pop one in somewhere. Today I am determined, tomorrow is another day.
Well so much for my commentary on the change of season, somewhere I was waylaid, never mind , it is a win that I typed at all. Here’s to a life of balance!
Cheers! Chris.xx
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