With my recent luck I spontaneously bought a lottery ticket, testing the universe to see if my luck would hold. I opted for a Euro millions ticket for the same night Tuesday, I have never tried that one before. Now days later, I wonder if I won, ha, yes I know it is doubtful, but just now I can inhabit the world of limbo, where I can imagine the prize being mine. That’s my problem, on the rare times I have purchased a ticket, I have wished and almost expected to win. I have once or twice won another free try but never any money.
I have always believed in earning your way in life, that hard work and commitment will lead to wealth and comfort, of course I have never achieved these and secretly I have prayed to the universe to send me free money. What would I do with my winnings, well this I do know, I would open a residential centre for chronic illness support. I would live a good live and share my luck with others by giving back to society and helping the M.E society. I would use my knowledge of this illness to reach others and who knows where that might lead me. Well I doubt I will ever win a fortune and so I must look at these dreams and try to build something of my life towards fulfilling them without money.
Who knows maybe this ticket will be the lucky one, we all have a chance, right? You must be ‘in it to win it’ and all those other advertising slogans that draw us in and tempt us. What is the national lottery really? Isn’t it just another tax on the poor? Which socio-economic group is most prone to buying into the illusion? Those with less are the ones to take such chances, the desperate are most prone to take the gamble, it’s such a small amount of money, who does it hurt? Scratch cards are a temptation to those in need, those who work hard and still have nothing, the money raised goes to support good causes, win win all round or is it?
So many charities fill the void left by our government, RNLI, why is this a charity with volunteers rescuing people at sea, why isn’t this a paid organisation? Other charities too exist for the people, providing support which is lacking in our societal systems. In other words we are paying to serve our own needs, therefore, its a taxation, not a harmless fun industry afterall. Those most in need pay most. GGGrrrr, I am getting started, and still I am praying to the universe to make me rich. This is exactly how it works.
I selected my numbers at total random, with no thought behind it. How many of us have routines for our choices, important numbers and dates to use, we are all buying in to the system. This time I left it to the universe to guide me, being already lucky that day, I barely looked at the numbers, five 1-50 and 2 lucky stars.
Maybe I am already a millionaire and don’t even know it?
Time to check and end the dream.
Wish me luck,
Chris. xx
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