Blunt.

Recently I was told by my mother that I am too blunt. At first I took exception to this but then I thought about it. Yes it is true! I can be very blunt. Presenting personality takes enormous energy, all cognitive and communication skills take energy. Take that energy away and what are we left with?

So I embrace my bluntness and ask my mother to consider how hard it is for me, to understand that I am not blunt I am exhausted. That when I am over tired I can not project personality, I can merely answer a question when asked and not answer the same question three times in a row as she would like.

This reminds me why I have few friends, if my own mother judges me, what must others think of me. This is one of the reasons I avoid people when my energy is low.

There are some who like my straight forward honesty, I don’t have energy to waste and honesty is simpler. I guess I do speak my mind, my communication skills are flawed generally, it is hard to get things right with people when I spend so much time alone. Exhaustion makes it impossible so often.

I am not knowingly blunt, I am tired!

Chris.xx